do you like Spaghetti? last nite both andy and i were exhausted by the time we got home. i only had some popcorns and coke from the homecoming events and andy had nothin.. but he first played a game of starcraft online with his co-worker.. then he told he’s starving and we decided to make Spaghetti. it was delicious… hahaha.. probably because we were both so hungry.. you like Spaghetti?
last nite i finally talked to daynah on the phone for the first time… wow how sweet.. actually she surprised with her voice. when she picked up the phone i thought it was al’s younger sister or something.. sound like a 9 y-o LOL we talked for an hour? we talked a lot.. i know andy really surprised her with his deep voice.. yup, that’s andy’s real voice, believe or not..
my mom decided to keep up the war with us. last nite she sticked a note on our door to ask us move out. this morning with a more detailed one telling us to move out by new year… haha good, now we have evidence, she can’t ask us to go any sooner.. and we certainly gonna use this time to formulate good plans against her.
anyway i suppose to call my dad today since i wont have rides from bus due to the homecoming here.. see catch me up later =)
i’m trying to go back to normal. last nite i had such fun sharing my webcam with daynah until andy got home and then we had start our business. we went our tenat to ask her to pay half my dad each month. there’s no doubt that my mom will set off for a huge fight when she finds it out. but then what else can we do? my mom is unreasonable person. she doesn’t reason with you. all she does is fight to get whatever she wants… everyone knows that.
thank god andy and i are going to his mom for dinner tonite. so i wont have to face my mom today during her day off. actually no one wants. my dad was asking us to go out for dinner if my mom’s home today. i woke up this morning a little late.. i hear her slamming doors around. i got out of the house to the bus stop as fast i possibly can.
anyway.. i’m probably gonna call daynah on the phone today.. so excited about that =) wouldn’t that be so very sweet!
i just found out that michael jordan is back to NBA again. in the newspaper he says he will donate his first year salary to the Sept 11 terrorist attack. i’m soly impressed. i am not a sport person but i love to see him play. he has magic power to appeal audience not only by his sport also by his personality. i’m so happy. he is a great encouragement to all ppl in US.
andy came home later saw me crying and reading the entry i was typing he quickly figured out why. he was very upset about that.. he’s seen my mom done this many times before. there is no doubt in his mind that my mom has been mentally and emotionally abusing me for at least the past year. he actually went to the police department after work to find out if there’s any law we can use to stop my mom from doing stuff like this. unfortunately he found out there’s no way to ask my mom leave the house unless my father divorce her.. and we know that unless my father wants to go to court, there’s no way my mom would consent to that… so to have peace the only way is we move out… before dinner last nite my father, andy and i are formulating the best way to do that now.. and we had a good plan by dinner.. we will start slowly tho making sure things turn out the best… sigh…
i really hate my mom.. it’s not that i should let her get in my way, she’s just always everywhere… like always… it’s about money.. she only cares about money i swear.. she’s so ridiculous >< i don't understand!!!!!!!!!! she always makes me cry. i didn't cry too much today tho.. not like last time.. i just feel crying for her is so meaningless and i hate myself doing that.
she's been asking my dad to pay for the mortgage for the house without sharing any of the tenat rent with him. that's just plain not fair. and last weekend, my dad, andy and i have already talked and decided to set up a date to talk to the tenat to remake a contract with her so she can pay both of my parents since my mom is such a *****. she came in this morning waking me up because andy turned on heater these days so i don't get worse on my cold. and she doesn't want to pay extra for the heater and asked me what kind of cold i have. she's willing to buy medicine or a small electric heater in my room but not the extra money in heating the house. all she cares is money.. she only comes to ask me my health due to money. that just hurts me… it really does.. i mean it doesn't surprise me or anything.. by moving out two times in the past few years, i don't ever want to expect any kindness or motherly like features in her.. but still everytime i converse with her i get so mad and hurt. i don't understand!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she's asking me to move out again… the old things replay themselves. i was crying… coz i just don't understand how can she do things like this.
i told her i understand that my father wants to keep money for himself because he doesn't want to spent his rest of life with her. my father has always planning to go back to china when he retires.. guess what my mom says? she said she's planning for the same thing and that's why she thinks he should pay for everything. i asked: why you tried so hard not to get a divorce with him during so many attempts that my father started? what's the point? she said she just doesn't want trouble. TROUBLE??! what's trouble, fighting everyday or just get it taken care once. of course deep inside i know why.. because she still relies on him to get her greencard that time. she will lose the thing she wants most if she agreed to divorce. and she still wants to show that this is a family on the surface. WHY WHY WHY WHY???!!!!!!!!!!!!! i don't understand. it's not like she cares… she still thinks i will not have a life any better then she does. she contantsly tells me: you will do the same thing in the future and once you will see why i'm doing this. NO WAY IN A MILLION MILLION YEARS would i ever be able to understand her. i just hate her.. hate her selfishness and coldness. i don't know why she's my mom. she doesn't care about me.. only her money. she only talks me when i'm using too much of her money. god **** she's not paying a penny for my college.. i pays mostly myself by working 20 hours a week and my dad helps. and she says that's because my dad should be responsible 50% of my cost as a parent. I was like, 50% or 100%? she was like what about all the bills i pay?! it's not much less than his mortgage payment. all she cares is money…….. she took the $1000 check my father sent to me while i was in china of course without even a mention to me. and now she's telling she's paying those bills for me. her name is on the certificant of this house, not mine. what the **** is wrong with her??! she then continues saying how she hated her mom when she was my age so she totally understands me and won't blame me. that is just so ridiculous.. my grandma is the kindest person in the world and it must be her problem that she didn't get along with her. what's worse? she beat my grandma once. having the emergency ppl coming to my grandma's house to save her from a heart attack. i witnessed that with my own eyes when i was just a little kid. now i asked her, she denies. whatever!!! she thinks i was too small to remember or what. i remember every single ugly thing she did in the past including pointing my nose telling me to out of the house when i was unwilling to do her english assignment for her when she was in church taking free english classes. she went out of the house kicking and yelling. asking me to move out again.. it's no use now. my father and i moved out once.. and it was her who did every possible way she can to get us move back including yelling in the apartment we chose to live. she's just plain crazy.. that's all i can say about her.
so there's how my sleep in morning went.
back to school.. i am very tired.. i talked to andy for a long time last nite.. it was just so nice to have time to talk to him.. we always have such fun conversation.. arrr… i wished time would last forever.. but now here i am, in school, facing all the reality of a poor college student. i still have homework i didn’t take care of.. grr.. school is such a burden when you have to do stuff you don’t like.
plug today gardenia.. man she turned her entire site to flash. i’m very impressed. i’m thinking of making a flash version of my portfolio as well.. just don’t know when i will have the time to finish it =P sob sob.. if life is just about my webpages, i will be the happiest person on earth!
i’ve been feeling sick.. must because i worked too hard yesterday. last nite when i went to bed i couldn’t fall asleep coz i had great back pain…. andy was giving me massage which really helped and i had to take extra strength tylenol. i woke up sleepy this morning. but i couldn’t stop myself from checking my new guestbook. many ppl signed, i was very happy. i added the edit function so now i can have admin reply in each entry with a matter of click.
daynah’s in disneyland today. i’m so happy that she’s having so much fun. coz the sky here today sure doesn’t look too pleasing.
i have to read three more short stories for creative writing. i just don’t feel like doing it.. what do you do when you don’t feel like doing school work?
i’m so exhausted.. my back really hurts.. maybe coz i’ve been sitting in front of a computer for the past 6 hours straight.. arrr.. i finally finished my guestbook. thanks to daynah who lent me her guestbook code. but since i thought it might take me longer to figure her algorithm than just do it on my own, i wrote most of the guestbook myself. now it’s done. it looks so empty. will you be nice and sign it? This book so far is not for public release.. since it does not have an admin page.. i might work on it more so i can get it released some day maybe =PP
oh well.. btw, daynah, if you are reading this: i used your code as a basic outline. but i did things differently. i added:
1. number of page numbers show on one page
2. private message
3. view ip
4. a new variable in front of the table name – which allows multiple tables in one database
anyway.. that algorithm for the number of page numbers show on one page took me forever to figure out altho i’ve already done similar things in my simple gallery script.. i felt so dumb that i just couldn’t get it to work… oh well.. it’s all over now.. i’m heading home =)