Loading ...my mom’s crazy
September 25th, 2001
i really hate my mom.. it’s not that i should let her get in my way, she’s just always everywhere… like always… it’s about money.. she only cares about money i swear.. she’s so ridiculous >< i don’t understand!!!!!!!!!! she always makes me cry. i didn’t cry too much today tho.. not like last time.. i just feel crying for her is so meaningless and i hate myself doing that.
she’s been asking my dad to pay for the mortgage for the house without sharing any of the tenat rent with him. that’s just plain not fair. and last weekend, my dad, andy and i have already talked and decided to set up a date to talk to the tenat to remake a contract with her so she can pay both of my parents since my mom is such a *****. she came in this morning waking me up because andy turned on heater these days so i don’t get worse on my cold. and she doesn’t want to pay extra for the heater and asked me what kind of cold i have. she’s willing to buy medicine or a small electric heater in my room but not the extra money in heating the house. all she cares is money.. she only comes to ask me my health due to money. that just hurts me… it really does.. i mean it doesn’t surprise me or anything.. by moving out two times in the past few years, i don’t ever want to expect any kindness or motherly like features in her.. but still everytime i converse with her i get so mad and hurt. i don’t understand!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she’s asking me to move out again… the old things replay themselves. i was crying… coz i just don’t understand how can she do things like this.
i told her i understand that my father wants to keep money for himself because he doesn’t want to spent his rest of life with her. my father has always planning to go back to china when he retires.. guess what my mom says? she said she’s planning for the same thing and that’s why she thinks he should pay for everything. i asked: why you tried so hard not to get a divorce with him during so many attempts that my father started? what’s the point? she said she just doesn’t want trouble. TROUBLE??! what’s trouble, fighting everyday or just get it taken care once. of course deep inside i know why.. because she still relies on him to get her greencard that time. she will lose the thing she wants most if she agreed to divorce. and she still wants to show that this is a family on the surface. WHY WHY WHY WHY???!!!!!!!!!!!!! i don’t understand. it’s not like she cares… she still thinks i will not have a life any better then she does. she contantsly tells me: you will do the same thing in the future and once you will see why i’m doing this. NO WAY IN A MILLION MILLION YEARS would i ever be able to understand her. i just hate her.. hate her selfishness and coldness. i don’t know why she’s my mom. she doesn’t care about me.. only her money. she only talks me when i’m using too much of her money. god **** she’s not paying a penny for my college.. i pays mostly myself by working 20 hours a week and my dad helps. and she says that’s because my dad should be responsible 50% of my cost as a parent. I was like, 50% or 100%? she was like what about all the bills i pay?! it’s not much less than his mortgage payment. all she cares is money…….. she took the $1000 check my father sent to me while i was in china of course without even a mention to me. and now she’s telling she’s paying those bills for me. her name is on the certificant of this house, not mine. what the **** is wrong with her??! she then continues saying how she hated her mom when she was my age so she totally understands me and won’t blame me. that is just so ridiculous.. my grandma is the kindest person in the world and it must be her problem that she didn’t get along with her. what’s worse? she beat my grandma once. having the emergency ppl coming to my grandma’s house to save her from a heart attack. i witnessed that with my own eyes when i was just a little kid. now i asked her, she denies. whatever!!! she thinks i was too small to remember or what. i remember every single ugly thing she did in the past including pointing my nose telling me to out of the house when i was unwilling to do her english assignment for her when she was in church taking free english classes. she went out of the house kicking and yelling. asking me to move out again.. it’s no use now. my father and i moved out once.. and it was her who did every possible way she can to get us move back including yelling in the apartment we chose to live. she’s just plain crazy.. that’s all i can say about her.
so there’s how my sleep in morning went.
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September 25th, 2001 at 1:54 pmthanks sis.. i called my grandma in china after that and i talked to her.. she was so understanding just like everyone else.. i was crying on the phone.. but then i had to go.. due to lack of sleep.. my eyes are hurting all day.. so i’m going home soon, to finish my discrete structure homework and to be comfortable with myself and hopefully my mom wont be there 
Ahh.. good to hear you’re okie sis. 
I’m sorry you have to go thru this… *hugs* I’ll talk to you when you get home, but you should get some rest. Sleep well.
oh dodo! ::hugs:: that’s horrible. i cannot believe a mother would turn away her daughter over money! you are in my thoughts. i hope you are feeling better…take care of yourself…you will prove to her that you will turn out differently…and much better.
omg… and I thought my mom was bad sometimes :(. I feel so bad for you… I wish there was something I could do :(.
Oh dodo, I’m so sorry. =( I know exactly how you feel.. my mom is the exact same way.. hey.. what’s with asian moms anyway? ^^;; Everyone asian person I go to, is complaining about their mom.. eugh.. my mom is evil too.. =( Last time, she made me cry so bad, I couldn’t breathe. She’s so mean.. doesn’t understand how I feel at all. Only about what she feels. Not once have I ever heard her ask if I was ok… I can really relate to you Dodo. *hugs you* I really hope things turn out better for you! I know it wil!
I’m asian, but … I don’t know any other asian who has problems with his/her mom. Oh dodo, I’m really sorry.
actually i don’t even want to wish for my mom to understand me.. as long as she didn’t pick on me, i will be happy
aww, dodo. I feel really bad for you. I get in fights sometimes with my parents and tell them but I don’t truly mean it. I feel so sorry for you. I hope you feel better and work things out for the best. Hope your cold goes away soon, too!
sometimes i get really pissed at my mom and i just feel like i wouldn’t care if she dropped dead right now but other times i feel like i couldn’t live without her. anyway, hope things turn out okay for you
I have similar problems with my parents. I understand how you feel. I was emotionally abused a lot as a child. I think I’m suffering issues from that even now. It’s horrible. My parents think of nothing but money. I understand that money is an important issue, espcialy if you’re struggling financialy. I guess it’s hard for parents to remember the times when other things were more important. I’ve fought a lot with my mom. Especialy in high school. Thankfully, she’s not so bad now. But every now and then, she goes crazy and starts with the name calling nonsense. It hurts a lot. I just don’t let her see my cry. I pretend to ignore her, and leave the room.
I’m really sorry about all of this. I hope things will be better for you Dodo, you don’t deserve this. *hugs*
basically i avoid all i can to converse with her.. but there just times i just can’t avoid.. so she hurts me like usu. sigh… i wished i could have turned my cd player high that morning before i even said anything. life will go on tho.. thanks for all the notes!
Aww.. I’m so sorry! I know how you feel though. But it’s with my dad. He doesn’t care about me at all, he is married to this evil woman & she always lies to get us in trouble & to get “whipped”. He went a little too far the last time I was there & he said he would do it again too! So, I’m really sorry. Just try not to let it ruin your life = )~ *hugs*
my family has it’s share of problems, but we’re pretty happy in general. reading that entry, i’m so sorry dodo. i can only imagine what it’s like to live under your roof. and i’m sure you’ll be 1000000000 times better than your mom! i don’t know you personally, but someone who is so kind and helpful must be the nicest person in the world. i hope you feel better! there are heaps of stuff we can all be grateful for, so when you’re feeling down, make sure you think about close friends, as well as friends like us who is here for you. if all else fails, chocolate usually helps.
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*hugs* so sorry to hear about your mom. My mom is also Asian, money-obsessed and obsessed with prestige. I was valedictorian, graduated magna from Berkeley and at the top of my class in law but she thinks I’m complete trash b/c I’ve decided I’d rather spent my life doing something actually useful to society like educational technology research rather than helping corporations make rich people richer. All she ever talks about is money. I seriously think she has some kind of bipolar depressive disorder because she’s always angry all the time. She’s been emotionally abusing me since I was born. Its so horrible, I know how you feel, although your mom seems worse, which I didn’t think was humanly possible. I’m so sorry. I’d suggest just moving out, do whatever it takes to get away from mother’s poison and just be your own person. If it is means delaying your education, just get a job and get out of that toxic environment. You’re only alive for so long (77 years is average), don’t waste years of your life being unhappy. Asian parents are the worst, don’t care what anybody says. Its like a whole race of cold, unfeeling, money-obsessed people who pawn their kids off like trophys. I’m so sorry honey. Many *hugs* and hope it all works out for you. You’re taking discrete math so must be a bright girl, just be independent (I know its hard) and your brilliance will help you accomplish all your dreams.
*hugs* again….
i totally understand this feeling. All my mom care is about money everyone in my family hated her but there totally nothing we could do. I just accidentally took her bag n left it in my brother room and she come out scolding and hitting me saying i was trying to stole her money while not even a sen was gone. now i couldn’t even attend my semi final badminton competition i don’t know why but sometime when i try to understand her she doesn’t seem to be trying to understand me is one damn fucking life
*hugs* Sis… I hope you’re ok… reading your entry just made my heart break… I can’t believe you have to go thru so much pain… I know my mom is sometimes harsh on me.. nagging at everything I do…. but your mom is a bit extreme…. *sigh* I wish I could be physically there for you and give you a hug… My heart is crying… How could someone have such a wonderful and loving daughter be so heartless and cruel?… it doesn’t make sense… *shake head* doesn’t make any sense at all… I can see the pain you’re going through sis.. I can feel it hurting me as much it hurts you… I’m so sorry for what you’re going through. I wish things would get better for you soon sis… maybe someday soon you and andy can come move out to CA… we can hang out all the time.
*smile* I’ll even take you to Disneyland… =) *hugs* I really wish you were here… I’ll be your shoulder to cry on… *hugs* If you need to talk, I’ll be on aim.. cheer up sis..
Love,
Daynah