i don’t know how many of you know about the terrible genocide of Tutsis had happened not a 100 years ago but in June 1994. 800,000 Tutsis were slaughtered by Rwandan militia in 100 days. Five times the speed of killing in Hitler’s Holocaust. UN did nothing. actually many countries asked their troops to leave the country when the genocide started. When the Belgium soldiers were leaving, the refugees begged them to shoot them with machine guns. they said they’d rather die that way than getting slaughtered by machetes.
The country of Rwanda was so full of dead bodies that the corpse flowed to many neighboring countries thru river streams.
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people’s lives are so worthless in some areas of the globe. you wonder where were those who swore to prevent the mistake of holocaust from happening again…where were they?
i’ve been wondering how many of you have siblings and how many of you enjoy having them or rather not having any? i’m a single child and i always wonder what it’s like to have a sister or brother. it’s strange i actually have quite a few god ones hehe.. but i don’t really spend 24/7 with them. i played by myself when i was younger. most children in my elementary school were single children too so i never thought much about having siblings then. my father always felt sorry that i didn’t get the opportunity to feel the love from any siblings. hmm i’m not too sure about it. since i really get to CHOOSE my god ones hehe… what happens if i never got along with my siblings? sometimes i really perfer to be by myself. any interesting stories you have with your siblings? if you ever become a parent one day, will you want your child to be a single child? that question still baffles me.
saturday we had turkey dinner at andy’s step mom’s church. it was very yummy. when i went to andy’s dad’s house, i got this new pair of hellokitty socks. CHECK OUT my webcam pic. isn’t it CUTE hehe…
today i was writing a 7 page paper and it sucked. i finally gave up after i got totally sick of it =P I will finish it up sometimes later since it’s not due until next thursday.
i downloaded some old pc games over the weekend. they are quite fun actually i will put them up at my game download section.
a letter written by me from the last century. i do not know why i want to quote it. there’s something in it that makes my heart …..
“****… you don’t understand.. it’s again midnite..school tomorrow right? sure.. and what is crazy dodo doing? missing you.. kept tossing around on the bedcouldn’t fall asleep. ******** made me sad today… ihad enough sleep this afternoon.. but i was dreamingabout strange things… many things are in my mindsimutaneously… what are you doing now, honey?so i got up.. turned on my computer.. check emails..then i found this site in my webring submissions…full of couples’ pics.. gosh that just made me feelworse.. hai… i’m so dead now i just ate an cake,some snaps.. and two cups of 7ups.. i’m gonna have badteeth if i keep eating during nite and don’t brush..eek eeksee i’m a lil crazy right now.. i don’t really knowwhat i am doing. i’m half lying on the bed.. iextended my arms long enough so i can reach keyboard..i see my typings sideway.. so don’t be surprised if mysentences don’t make sense.. coz they arent proofreadthe correct way.sometimes it helps when i get online.. coz i felt somuch more lonely in the dark, on the bed, all bymyself… ****..*tears*.. i wish to hear your voice..almost like whispering.. but so sweet so gentle.. mysole is connected with it.. no one would understandhow much that voice mean to me.. not even me..sometimes i try to immitate your voice and i feltreal.. almost felt like you are around.. next to myear.. but then that feeling went away.. leaving behinda room of darkness… i would then cover myself upwith blanket.. holding myself tight.. trying to avoid any coalition with fate… but i’m so vulnerable.. i can’t handle the tide of memory.. i can’t resist thehope of seeing you… i’m just in hand of my ownemotions.. rocking back and forth.. til it stopsrocking.. i will raise my head and start to look outof window.. sunshine always makes me happy.. but todaythere was no sun in the sky.. it rained and snowed…i didnt know what it meant… i just went back rocking… sad huh? but it’s alright.. i guess i just wentback to baby stage.. baby likes to be rocked ba…….k… i must have some mental obstructionstonite.. coz half of my words make sense.. the otherdoesnt… if you can ignore the other.. fine… hmmi’m getting sleepy.. my friend is going to sleep too..ok i’m even yawning now….. hmm……~~”
andy and his brother are excited to get their pictures with Tim Dwight (wide receiver for the San Diego Chargers who also played for Hawkeyes) out of the digital camera yesterday. check them out here.
i want to hug my XP, it hasn’t given me any trouble yet abount any drivers for my hardwares. it recognized my cd burner and zip drive automatically. i’m going to plug in my tablet and webcam, hopefully it will be just as smart i’m getting a copy of office XP from paul tomorrow. i already got neo burning rom from him. and i used it right a way last nite for burning some cds for him. btw, daynah, you owe something! *moew* vera, please forgive my dumb script
i got my computer BACK and i got XP installed. woohoo.. check out my new “pucca ocean” theme.. thank you to gaile for the wonderful program and pucca wallpaper! i’m going to drive andy crazy with all the shortcut icons at the lower left changed muahahaha…
i can’t believe it! i just finished my second calc III midterm. the teacher let me check out the answers after i finished and i did well on most of the problems except the second last problem. i did way more than expected on the problem!! in another words, i did NOT do the problem the way it was asked but a harder WAY! and i know i did it right but i WILL NOT get full credit because i did it the wrong way. *sob* *sob* i did more work for less credit. slap slap slap
and i missed my bus home. i’m stuck here at the lab for another hour. i left my wallet and my pencil at the unix lab when i was studying for the test earlier. then after i finished, i went to the bus and realized my wallet was gone. i went back to the unix lab to find them. thank goodness they were STILL THERE!! that was the luckiest part of my unlucky nite.
news on the weekend. i got my new harddrive last week. it seems like installing a new window won’t be much problem. but because we moved two times, some of the cds came with my other hardware are misplaced. i will need driver for my digital cam, my tablet can i find those drivers elsewhere? TIPS PLEASE! i also got botsoak’s cd. THANK YOU BOTSOAK! you are awesome!
andy got a new ps2 game for us. it’s called legend of mana. it’s a very cute and fun role playing game. but the two player function of the game is very limited we are finishing on the Spyro.. andy’s having some trouble beating the END BOSS – Gnasty Gnorc!! it’s so hard. there’s no room for a single mistake.
I wrote this script coz a girl on my board required it. i thought it was something fun to play with last nite so i did it. if you want to try it out, click
I also want to plug my very dear hostee vera!!! she finally moved in. YAY
I’m no football fan. but Iowa has been kicking some major ass this year! GO HAWKS!
it’s finally weekend.. gosh.. what a terrible week. after i got home yesterday, i took some medicine. it’s the NyQuil stuff but it’s supposed to be non drowsy since it’s for day time. it still made me dizzy. i was sleeping all afternoon. later i somehow managed to cook something for andy’s lunchbox. i don’t even know why i did that. then at nite i couldn’t sleep at all because of my nose problem.
when i went to my numerical analysis teacher’s office this morning, he told me how i shouldn’t have taken the day time medicine since i don’t have all the symptons it cures. i’m getting all the unnecessary side affects. arrg.. he suggested some different medicine for me. i was so touched. he then explained he made suggestions coz he thought my parents were in china. i told him they are here actually but i dont live with them and i truly needed the advice. i felt like crying… my dad has been nice but he doesn’t have enough knowledge to give me good advice. my mom… well the most recent news about my mom is that she is going back to china to visit my grandma on Nov. 25th. i called my grandma last weekend and my grandma said she wanted vitmin C and calcium tablets. i said no problem, i’d get them for her. earlier this week i got a message on my answer machine from my mom telling me “oh this this store has a coupon for calcium tablets, you can get it for this this amount.”… so sickening… instead of getting something for HER OWN MOTHER.. she could only do what… why didn’t she feel ashamed leaving SUCH A MESSAGE?! then yesterday she called me at work sounded all buddy buddy coz she wanted andy to give her a ride to the airport. i can’t wait to get her completely out of my life. just move to a different state without letting her know my address or phone number. any of her action drives me insane. and i do need my sanity so i don’t end up like her!
on a brighter note, i got to curve my first pumpkin on wednesday nite when we had a little party at andy’s mom’s house. andy’s mom’s dog Rascal is two years old. that party was half halloween party, half bday party for Rascal. and of course we carved two pumpkins i made a happy pumpkin. i thought andy’s brother’s pumpkin looked like a bear