I believe so much in true love. Qiong Yao’s books inspired me ever since I am 14. Her books tossed me around in the dream world and reality. I talked to the stars at night and wished someone would come and touch my heart. When that dream came true when I was 16, I was amazed. The sky rongrong and I built for each other is one of the finest love story. Although we ended up in separate ways, I still think it is a forever treasure in my life. I’ve also lost hope in love mainly due to my naive dream toward another man who ended up broken my heart into pieces. However, life is fair.. now my heart is dancing, I feel like singing coz another wonderful spring warms me within. I feel so grateful that Andy is here with me whenever I need him. His love is so strong and beautiful. There is really very little more I can ask. Love is the most wonderful feeling and emotion to have in life. You will not understand how meaningful life can be until you have really loved and dedicated.
My friends are the ones who initially taught me to treasure life. Because the horrible fighting between my parents, I was often left alone and uncared for when I was young. I once wanted to commit suicide because my mom doesn’t love me. She pointed at my nose and asked me to get out of the house in a snowy winter night because she was angry with something else. I forever remember that night when I cried for three consecutive hours in Yang Da Wei’s house. Thank you, Yang Da Wei and Wang Wen. If one day you happen to read this, please let me know how you are doing. I also have many other true friends both offline and online. Becky and Martha are my best friends in school. Even though I no longer see them, I think of them often. My dear god sister Julia who cares about me as much is always my happiness and relief. We have no secrets when we talk. It’s amazing how we only wish the best for each other and support each other no matter what we want to do in life. Online, I have many sincere friends who I believe will continue to support and encourage me the rest of my life. They are the ones who understand me by heart. They share the same beliefs with me in life and they are my soul-mates. I want to thank you john young, ye hang, rongrong for guiding me and loving me. I can only return your kindness by continuously working hard and live happily in my life.
Purity is one of the main values I hold to. I’m not a Christian; I have a self defined religion. I can feel an upper power or force, but I believe in no benevolent soul who watches over the world. I am always faithful to myself. I will not do anything to make myself regret later. I try to be as thoughtful as possible. I fight with my fear, my impulsion, my naive ness, my distractions, and my helplessness to overcome my obstacles. I do not allow the dirty side of the world to influence me. I see no merits in drugs, alcohol or cigarettes. I do not judge anything that I do not understand such as homosexuality, religion, and my parents. I adhere to honesty, faithfulness, responsibility and hard working. I truly love life and many of the values came to me quite naturally. I believe a full life is to feel the most amount of accomplishment possible through one’s own ability. I do that through the values I adhere. And I’m very pleased that my values influence others around me as well.