saturday nite i showed andy the webpage i made for him. by then, there were almost 100 people who signed our guestbook which including his mom, brother, cousins and aunt. he was very much touched by everything and tears fell out of his eyes. he kissed and hugged me tight.. then he said he will give me the second surprise, he also request that we must go to the park…

he carried a notebook and we started heading to the park that we went to a year earlier on this same date (Septemper 9th).. i asked him whether it was a poem that he was gonna give me. he said maybe.. i was thinking what else could be in that notebook besides some writing..

soon it proved i was right but not quite.

we entered the park and found a table and sat down. facing the twilight, he started his heart felt poem. it sounded much like an outline of what we’ve been thru in the past year at first.. until…

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The tale of the love of the year:

How did it happen?

Where did it start?

Who handed over the reins of my heart?

The tale of the love of the year

It is how I describe the sweet music I hear.

That speaks of a woman lovely and fair

And the man whose love she longed to bear

Deep inside this man’s blue eyes

His love stayed hidden so tender and shy

So slowly at first with long walks at night

These lovers talked and expressed what they might, ’til that day she asked him to stay

And let all of the feelings come what way, together they slept their dreams of the stars

All within rhythm of the beating of hearts

and a beautiful morning with sun on her face

The man slowly, sadly had to leave her place

But together again the lovers would be

Separation was impossible which was plain to see

Alone in the night in each other’s arms

They discovered great passion and somewhere so warm,

where their love could grow and forever it will

When he left he saw her at the window still.

Oh why must he go, she needed him there

But what was the price? Should they dare?

dare they did for their love was so great

and all of the prices left up to fate.

But how odd it was for the lovers to find, that people can be so open and kind

So never again would they have to part, and every night is the passion of their heart

Thus is the tale of the love of the year and for me, my love, it has been something so dear

that my heart must keep it forever with me, which is why i now ask,

(Andy kneeled down in front of me and looking into my eyes, i was so afraid what i was guessing was true but he went ahead), Will you marry me?

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As soon as he said that, my head started to spin around *WHAT??* andy continued: “I mean not right now, but in the future. I want people to know you not as my girlfriend but my fiancee, someone who will become my wife one day. I don’t even have a ring, nor do I have money to buy one. But knowing that one day I can have a family with you will make me the happiest man in the world.”

i didn’t know what has happened in the past few minutes. My head was filled with overwhelming astonishment. This was nothing I expected. Never in a hundred years would I guess this. Why so soon and with such a heartfelt and romantic woo? I felt like hiding. No matter how much I love him, I still felt like hiding somewhere I can not be seen. There were men before him asking me to marry them, but not in this dramatic way. I took them more or less as a joke. I didn’t know how to handle situations so real.. this is not in movies… i mean, am i dreaming? so while those thoughts running thru my mind, i took a break. i asked him to stand up. he sat down next to me and i put my face into his bossom. that was my way of hiding myself i suppose. i started to feel his warm body, heartbeat and breath, so i believed i was not in a dream. this was rather realistic. he asked me to marry him, yes he did. but i never thought of marriage recently. not until i graduate from college. fiancee.. that word sounded a little too serious and too distant. was i going to totally break his heart if i told him no? so there i felt my heart trembling. much like the first time i heard someone told me in a heartfelt way that he loved me. my heart almost felt like hurting. i didn’t exactly know why i felt that way. obviously i had some tremendous emotions going thru my brain and they reached by my heart as well. i didn’t know how long my silence lasted. for a moment, i thought i was never going to speak again. finally with some fear, i told andy slowly.

“This is really a big deal for me, I can not give you an answer in…, just now.”

He nodded.

“That’s fine.”

“I understand. I will ask you again after I’m more ready to be a good husband and a father. After I graduated from college.”

Phew… I felt a huge weight had just been taken off my shoulder. I was happy I didn’t break his heart after all. I wanted to him smile again and he did. So that was my dramatic Saturday nite. Andy went on about how he believed being a successful husband and father was the biggest chanllege in a man’s life. And for him, it was also the biggest goal. He said going college and having a good career in the future was only his way for reaching his goal. And having a family was his biggest wish in life. He wanted to have a family with me.

Sunday was not as sunny as I hoped. But it was ok for us. Andy never brought up the marriage topic again. We went to cedar rapids have chinese buffet. Then we went to shopping. And I got a webcam ($20), a sweater ($18), a cd wallet (for 64 cds) ($15) and andy got a watch for $30. Around the mall, in different stores, we took numerous goofy (weirdest) pictures. Later at night we went to see American Pie II. It was simply stupid and hilarious. Right after movie, andy told me: Ok, I admit, that movie was funny.

Back to school, clumsy me forgot my wallet, so I had to go to dad’s office for lunch. That was I didn’t have time to get on internet all day. Then without bus pass, I went to my dad and he carried me home on his bike LOL. It’s once in life scene people! Too bad you missed it. Only my poor butt was so horribly abused ><