I beat myself today. I had upset dodo with something I said about relationships. I walked with her to the computer lab but she was still just so upset with me. When I got home, off came the shirt, and the leather belt. As I stood in front of the mirror looking at the red stripes and welts and broken skin across my torn body, I realized that even then I could not be mad at dodo. It then came to me. It is love that is most important. Not whom you love. As long as that mutual caring exists it should be nurtured and cherished. I learned most of all today that love can certainly hurt . . .
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Woa…. Andy, are you ok?? I’m glad you now understand love a bit more, but that was a dangerous thing you did to yourself with the belt.
The love and understanding between relationships is very important… and you shouldn’t worry about ‘how other relationships’ should be. They’re all different. However all healthy relationships are loving, caring, and understanding exists. I think you both are wonderful people, and if you love her, you must understand her. She’s a very unique person. 🙂
sometimes i do feel my love life from age 15 – 18 was a whole different world. a world sometimes i no longer recognize. perhaps no one in this current world would ever understand that part of me. i still wonder sometimes myself. but everything tells me it was real. the love, the story, the feeling, all in all. i understand it’s hard for you to understand. of course i still wish you do.
i was standing outside of pappajohn building watching you leave in your car.. i couldn’t stop crying.. not even now could i…. it’s so hard to put in words. maybe john was right i was departing from a part very innocent in me. the perhaps very “naive” part of me about my view toward love when i was younger. i once thought i would never learn. perhaps i did learn after i got cheated on and got hurt so bad. but somehow i felt sorry departing from that innocence… i dont know why…… i just can’t stop crying…..
i believe that through time we’ll know if it is love in every essence of the word. right now, i don’t know what love means and time will let show me how.
hmm. i guess thats all part of learning dodo. It is good not to love innocent all the time.. the world unfortunately isn’t bees and flowers. But i understand you miss to love that way.. i do miss it too ;(
I’m still trying to discover what love is. What is love? When do you know if you love someone? Is being in love something different? I have so many questions, and I just don’t understand at times.
Like Dodo, I used to be very naive about love and relationships. At first, I just dated guys because I wanted the physical attachment. Then I ended up getting hurt a lot. I was basicly used by someone, and that changed my innocent approach to relationships. The guys just dated me becuase they thought they could get something that would always be unattainable from me.
Then I dated a buy my senior year in HS. I cared so much for him and he truely meant a lot to me. But he didn’t feel the same… I spent a long time trying to get him back, but it wasn’t meant to be I guess.
Also, I think I was in love with my best friend in HS. But he pretty much broke my heart in two, and it hurt so much. It took me forever to get over him. I’m glad to say I’m over it now.
I’m thankful for the relationship I’m in now because for once, I can say that I really care about him and I can tell that he cares about me just as much. I think I might be falling in love again, but I’m still unsure. I just hope that if I do again, it’ll be mutual. He’s the sweetest guy, and the best thing that’s happened to me in a long time.
I still have questions. I hope one day, I’ll find answers for them, God willing.