my experience online is very ironic today. first i got the email from my english teacher in china telling me he wishes to move to a different district. he says “I have a deep-rooted hatred on those so-called leaders as Party members in my school. No class struggle in America, isn’t it? But in China, it’s quite different.” i wished him good luck and just minutes ago some “george_ca” guy left a message on my tabulas tagboard said “Are you anti-China? That’s not good to follow Weijs.” for all the years i’ve been living in america, no one labeled me as anti-anything. as soon as i start to talk chinese policies, wow, someone is already eagerly to give me a label. back a few decades, i will probably be a rightist and doing manual labor by now. wtf?! it just disgusts me when people jump to conclusion just because i question the governmental polices. apparently many mainlanders believe questioning policies = anti-government
only sugar coated words are to be accepted.
i’m born to chinese culture but am greatly shaped by western society and democracy. i see problems in china. what disappoints me even more is merely questioning for changes is deemed is anti – not even by the chinese gov’t but by some regular chinese. i hate to say but right now i feel chinese problems are hopeless. it’s better just not to care. i know this sounds ridiculous but i’ve thought so hard about chinese problems that i lost sleep. yea isn’t it dumb?! *slap slap* i think i will live just fine in a different country not interested in the country i was born just like thousands others who came here as a child.