thank you for your beautiful words. i was feeling down. one of the reasons is i’m leaving my grandma again. and i’m rather sad. because my grandma has been fighting to take care of my grandpa for nine years. my grandpa’s been seriously ill. he had been in and out of hospital emergency rooms nine times since we left. every time there was a very little hope that he could come out alive. but my grandma could always assist the doctors to help save his life. my grandma is a tough woman altho she had not had much education. she’s able to learn a lot more than people her age with the education she had. she’s 73 now and she has diabetes and couple other illness. my mom is her only daughter and i’m her only grand-daughter. neither of us can be by her side. i feel so sorry coz she loves me so dearly. she understands me more than my parents. i had always been close with her and i feel even closer after my visit. i’ve cried many times yesterday. i went to her place today. she walked me to the bus stop today and walked away crying.
this kind of parting makes me sick because no one knows if that was the last time i could see her alive or not.