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thank you

thank you for your beautiful words. i was feeling down. one of the reasons is i’m leaving my grandma again. and i’m rather sad. because my grandma has been fighting to take care of my grandpa for nine years. my grandpa’s been seriously ill. he had been in and out of hospital emergency rooms nine times since we left. every time there was a very little hope that he could come out alive. but my grandma could always assist the doctors to help save his life. my grandma is a tough woman altho she had not had much education. she’s able to learn a lot more than people her age with the education she had. she’s 73 now and she has diabetes and couple other illness. my mom is her only daughter and i’m her only grand-daughter. neither of us can be by her side. i feel so sorry coz she loves me so dearly. she understands me more than my parents. i had always been close with her and i feel even closer after my visit. i’ve cried many times yesterday. i went to her place today. she walked me to the bus stop today and walked away crying.

this kind of parting makes me sick because no one knows if that was the last time i could see her alive or not.

5 thoughts on “thank you

  1. Dodo, I understand what you’re feeling. My grandparents were the kindest, sweetest people I’ve met in my whole life. Most of the times they’d understand you better than you do yourself. My grandfather was really a father for me, loved and understood me and my brother much more than our real father could ever do, and my grandmother was also a mother for us, so we always felt we had a couple of moms. Now thery’re gone and we miss them very very much. I truly hope you’ll be able to see your grandparents again, and I wish they recover their health, so they’ll be able to stay with you for a long time.

  2. I can really sympathize…. After reading your blog, I couldn’t help but remember my own grandma who know lives in Hong Kong, half way around the world.

    My grandma practically raised me, and was there for me during my childhood years. It’s been so long since I’ve last seen her. =*( I know she’s slowly aging, and has been so many tough times, especially the the one major family crisis that occurred just recently. Like your grandma, my grandma is very strong women as well. She alone had to take care of my two little cousins, who in my opinion, are not the most obedient little kids that you can have. They always pick on her. =(((

    Anyhow, I wish you and your grandparents well ^^

    Your blog was really touching, dodo. It truly was.

  3. I’m not particularly close to my grandparents, but I do understand what is like to care for someone who is very ill. You grandmother is going through something similar to what my mom dealt with. I hope she can some outside support because it does become overwelming. The best thing you can do Dodo is care about your family, which you do already.

  4. i understand what you are going thru, too. dodo your entry made me remember my parents too.. in malaysia … way over there. a long way from california, that’s for sure.

    my grandma is very ill and old … and i understand what you mean about seeing them alive or dead.

    take care dodo. you can call her sometime when you’re back home. šŸ™‚ *hug*

  5. Dodo, I understand what you feel completely. Though my grandmother isn’t on the other side of the world, sometimes it seems that way… she constantly talks about dying and everytime I visit with her I get closer to her, and it just hurts to hear her talk about death. The one comfort that I can offer you is that I truely believe that we will all be together on the other side where no one is sick or in pain. In eternity our life here must be like a passing second…

    I look forward to chatting with you again. I hope your trip home went well.

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