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later
September 26th, 2001
andy came home later saw me crying and reading the entry i was typing he quickly figured out why. he was very upset about that.. he’s seen my mom done this many times before. there is no doubt in his mind that my mom has been mentally and emotionally abusing me for at least the past year. he actually went to the police department after work to find out if there’s any law we can use to stop my mom from doing stuff like this. unfortunately he found out there’s no way to ask my mom leave the house unless my father divorce her.. and we know that unless my father wants to go to court, there’s no way my mom would consent to that… so to have peace the only way is we move out… before dinner last nite my father, andy and i are formulating the best way to do that now.. and we had a good plan by dinner.. we will start slowly tho making sure things turn out the best… sigh…
thank you for everyone’s note.. esp. vera & daynahi’m mostly fine. still have a bit depressed feelings here and there… but i will be strong.
OMG!
September 24th, 2001
look what andy just got me
i told him i didn’t feel well and he took time to write me warm email along with pandy!!! he’s soooooooooo sweet!!! arrrrrrr……….
btw, pandy’s andy’s favorite stuffed animal when he was a little boy and he still has that =)
so what happened?
September 10th, 2001
saturday nite i showed andy the webpage i made for him. by then, there were almost 100 people who signed our guestbook which including his mom, brother, cousins and aunt. he was very much touched by everything and tears fell out of his eyes. he kissed and hugged me tight.. then he said he will give me the second surprise, he also request that we must go to the park…
he carried a notebook and we started heading to the park that we went to a year earlier on this same date (Septemper 9th).. i asked him whether it was a poem that he was gonna give me. he said maybe.. i was thinking what else could be in that notebook besides some writing..
soon it proved i was right but not quite.
we entered the park and found a table and sat down. facing the twilight, he started his heart felt poem. it sounded much like an outline of what we’ve been thru in the past year at first.. until…
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The tale of the love of the year:
How did it happen?
Where did it start?
Who handed over the reins of my heart?
The tale of the love of the year
It is how I describe the sweet music I hear.
That speaks of a woman lovely and fair
And the man whose love she longed to bear
Deep inside this man’s blue eyes
His love stayed hidden so tender and shy
So slowly at first with long walks at night
These lovers talked and expressed what they might, ’til that day she asked him to stay
And let all of the feelings come what way, together they slept their dreams of the stars
All within rhythm of the beating of hearts
and a beautiful morning with sun on her face
The man slowly, sadly had to leave her place
But together again the lovers would be
Separation was impossible which was plain to see
Alone in the night in each other’s arms
They discovered great passion and somewhere so warm,
where their love could grow and forever it will
When he left he saw her at the window still.
Oh why must he go, she needed him there
But what was the price? Should they dare?
dare they did for their love was so great
and all of the prices left up to fate.
But how odd it was for the lovers to find, that people can be so open and kind
So never again would they have to part, and every night is the passion of their heart
Thus is the tale of the love of the year and for me, my love, it has been something so dear
that my heart must keep it forever with me, which is why i now ask,
(Andy kneeled down in front of me and looking into my eyes, i was so afraid what i was guessing was true but he went ahead), Will you marry me?
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As soon as he said that, my head started to spin around *WHAT??* andy continued: “I mean not right now, but in the future. I want people to know you not as my girlfriend but my fiancee, someone who will become my wife one day. I don’t even have a ring, nor do I have money to buy one. But knowing that one day I can have a family with you will make me the happiest man in the world.”
i didn’t know what has happened in the past few minutes. My head was filled with overwhelming astonishment. This was nothing I expected. Never in a hundred years would I guess this. Why so soon and with such a heartfelt and romantic woo? I felt like hiding. No matter how much I love him, I still felt like hiding somewhere I can not be seen. There were men before him asking me to marry them, but not in this dramatic way. I took them more or less as a joke. I didn’t know how to handle situations so real.. this is not in movies… i mean, am i dreaming? so while those thoughts running thru my mind, i took a break. i asked him to stand up. he sat down next to me and i put my face into his bossom. that was my way of hiding myself i suppose. i started to feel his warm body, heartbeat and breath, so i believed i was not in a dream. this was rather realistic. he asked me to marry him, yes he did. but i never thought of marriage recently. not until i graduate from college. fiancee.. that word sounded a little too serious and too distant. was i going to totally break his heart if i told him no? so there i felt my heart trembling. much like the first time i heard someone told me in a heartfelt way that he loved me. my heart almost felt like hurting. i didn’t exactly know why i felt that way. obviously i had some tremendous emotions going thru my brain and they reached by my heart as well. i didn’t know how long my silence lasted. for a moment, i thought i was never going to speak again. finally with some fear, i told andy slowly.
“This is really a big deal for me, I can not give you an answer in…, just now.”
He nodded.
“That’s fine.”
“I understand. I will ask you again after I’m more ready to be a good husband and a father. After I graduated from college.”
Phew… I felt a huge weight had just been taken off my shoulder. I was happy I didn’t break his heart after all. I wanted to him smile again and he did. So that was my dramatic Saturday nite. Andy went on about how he believed being a successful husband and father was the biggest chanllege in a man’s life. And for him, it was also the biggest goal. He said going college and having a good career in the future was only his way for reaching his goal. And having a family was his biggest wish in life. He wanted to have a family with me.
Sunday was not as sunny as I hoped. But it was ok for us. Andy never brought up the marriage topic again. We went to cedar rapids have chinese buffet. Then we went to shopping. And I got a webcam ($20), a sweater ($18), a cd wallet (for 64 cds) ($15) and andy got a watch for $30. Around the mall, in different stores, we took numerous goofy (weirdest) pictures. Later at night we went to see American Pie II. It was simply stupid and hilarious. Right after movie, andy told me: Ok, I admit, that movie was funny.
Back to school, clumsy me forgot my wallet, so I had to go to dad’s office for lunch. That was I didn’t have time to get on internet all day. Then without bus pass, I went to my dad and he carried me home on his bike LOL. It’s once in life scene people! Too bad you missed it. Only my poor butt was so horribly abused ><
andy’s surprise
September 8th, 2001
our anniversary is coming up. I CANT WAIT! I CANT WAIT!! andy finally told me one of his suprises for me. coz he was asking me to leave the room when he had to use the computer. it was driving me crazy. later when i returned the room, he was making poopie face which almost looked like crying. so he had to tell that he found out that his surprise wont arrive until monday. so he was so sad… i nagged a while and he finally told me it’s a TABLET!!! one of the professional ones. a WACOM intuos 6×8 tablet with more than 2100 pressure adjustments. sounds a lot like this one.. but i don’t know how exactly it looks like. I can’t believe it. I really didn’t want him to spend so much money >< but it's too great. it's one of item i put on my wish list but he got it before i even had the wish list up. i was about to cry.. i didn't know whether i was too happy or too touched.. maybe both.
RASCAL!!
labor day
September 3rd, 2001
b2 is down for me for no good reason. first time i have to post in my mysql admin. anywayz i just go daynah’s lil u2u telling me how she’s doing on her trip. sounds pretty fine =)
yesterday andy and i went cook out with his brother and elizabeth (his brother’s gf).. it was quite fun. i was so stuffed at the end i didn’t even have room for ice cream.
labor day starts out fine for me.. when i first opened my eyes this morning, andy was holding a bowl of rice with my favorite sauage in it telling me to eat breakfast.. gosh… i couldn’t believe it.. or more like i was shocked.. i thought i was in a dream hehehehhe. he just came back from “work” and brought the badminton net set i really wanted.. WOW.. we can play badminton now.. i’m SO SO SO happy.. screams and runs out …………
new photos are up
August 27th, 2001
yeah, i finally found time to upload all those photos we took four days ago..
are we cute together?
note, i’m not THAT much shorter than him.. it’s just because the places we stood.. oh well
anywayz, you can find out more here.
do you have pictures to share?? daynah show me her 2 year anniversary photos.. daynah’s cute girl parrot girl hehehe.. she also showed me how to do web photo gallery using photoshop. i just didn’t like the fact that the thumbnails are in such low quality. but it’s very handy. for those who have photoshop, open it up and check out “file” -> “automate” -> “web photo gallery”.. very wonderful function for those who own digital cameras or love to take photos.
thank you
August 26th, 2001
here’s a big THANK YOU and HUG for everyone who took time and signed our anniversary page. I read them and found that many are from people I hardly know. I’m so touched by your sweet words and wishes. Thank you very much! You really made my day!
anniversary
August 25th, 2001
ryan’s pretty much out of my head now.. he’s banned from most of my places.. thank to those who supported and left messages. i’m working on a secret page for our upcoming anniversary. i dont want andy to know.. so i can only work on it while he’s at work. hope i will have it done by tonite so i can ask friends to sign the guestbook.. kiss everyone! back to work 
andy’s first day at school
August 22nd, 2001
today’s andy’s first day back to school. i’m so excited for him. he gave me a ride to work before he went to school. we have breakfast together.
i was so suprised to get his email for so long.. i guess from now on, i get to get lots from him yeah!!
here’s his email:
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Well, APC went well today. I like the teacher, he is to the point and humorous. Psychology is coming up in an hour. I really felt nervous when i got into the classroom. First time since 1998. When the teacher started to go along i just religiously took notes on everything since I had forgotten so much about math, but after a while I felt very confident in my ability to recapture these elements he wishes me to utilizefor his class. The parking was super bogart, I was lucky to find a great spot eventually. I find now that getting here early can certainly help the parking situation. I had not anticipated so many people would be clogging up the lots. As I walk around I see many familiar faces from high school. None of them seem to recognize me or care. I don’t really care either. It is just my nature to never forget faces and names. Cannot find much to do to spend an hour here, forgot my book *_* doh! I was sitting in the front row in my math class and just about sneezed the stack of syllabus papers onto the floor. God I hate allergies. There are so many smokies hanging outside the doors. Every step outdoors is a secondhand nicotine fit waiting to happen. I will have to develop a non-breathing technique to protect myself. So odd here also is to see a collage of old and young in these classrooms. Some people 50 and older in the same class as me. Strange. I need to remember to bring a water bottle with me too. I don’t want to hunt down drinking fountains all day. I guess you can have drinks in this computer lab. A guy behind me just opened up a mountain dew and drank right in front of the lab monitor. What a bogart. If you can’t tell I miss you and am bored waiting for my next class. Just sent you a little surprise. Will probably show up before this email does. Oh poopoo. I’m gonna go now. I love you.
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and his e-card!
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my reply
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how sweet!! i love your email.. it’s so fun and in detail hehehe… counting.. how long haven’t i gotten an email from you? woo hoo.. now i get to get so many of them yeah!! i’m so happy. i went to the place where they sell bus pass, they told me “if you are a student, the price for the pass is $88 today but on Monday it will go down to $68.” how strange.. but i guess it was an easy choice. i said i will come back on monday then. when i went to burge to get my meal plan, i found out they raised the price!!! they changed all the plans.. the only one suits my need is the $100 for 20 meals (regardless of time).. but then i have to go back every time after i finished 20 and purchase more.. how annoying!
i’ve surfing the official site of my favorite author. since i emailed the web master on qiong yao house yesterday, they told me about it. it’s really not as good as qiong yao house except it does have some news that’s written by qiong yao (almost diary like) to tell us about how all her soap operas are being developed.. and how every of her actor and actress are doing and stuff.. some of them are amusing.. but it gets kind boring after a while..
i found songs from her old movie back in 60s on qy house site. i’m pretty happy i get to listen to them.. coz i’ve been reading them (the lyrics) and never had a chance to listen to the song.. arr.. i guess your class is already started? i must not have gotten your email on time..
ttyl
kiss
